My relationship with God is the most valuable thing in life. I’m here because of God’s love, grace, and mercy. My relationship with God has led and continues to lead women away from me. Disappointing sometimes, yes, but am I hurt, no. No relationship out of the will of God is worth being in. Ever since 2014, I committed my life to holiness, purity, and righteousness. I committed to celibacy, and stopped listening to music riddled with sensuality, sexuality/lust, songs that encourage arrogance, self-centeredness, provokes loneliness, anger, fear, melancholy, and that reminds you of what you once had. Soul tie music is stronghold music that prevents you from moving on from the past. Some movies and people can have the same effect on you.
The narrow path of holiness, purity, and righteousness was a decision I needed to make to answer and prepare for the call/purpose God invited me to. More importantly, I accepted the invitation to deep intimacy and to walk with God. This path has been a fulfilling yet challenging one. Sometimes my humanity says to my spirit, is it worth it. By faith, trust, and love for God, my spirit says, it is.
Much of my understanding of love, relationships, and a woman comes from the word of God and the wisdom He blesses me with. The more time you spend studying the scriptures and basking in God’s presence, the more wisdom, knowledge, and revelation He will download into your spirit. Your discernment also increases. You’re just going to know and see certain things about people, environments, and situations before they unfold. If not in the beginning, later.
As you come to a place of maturity, you arrive at a point in life where you just want to enjoy the simple things with someone. Like consistency, simplicity, peace, and the first options are understanding, reconciliation, and forgiveness. These are the gems to look forward to in a relationship. It’s a trend to be difficult, indifferent, dysfunctional, and self-absorbing. And create problems or be evasive when you don’t have to. I can’t comprehend this. God brings the love into your life to love and not fight with. Then again, some people do only what they know. Things flow so much easier when there’s strong communication, trust, and security in each other, which takes time to build. The ride is also smoother when you both come together with the same goal in mind, which is to become one. This also takes time.